I'm overwhelmed, but I'm pretty sure no one knows it. I try not to let on that I'm unhappy with my self-discipline and lack of focus. I simply am not the recreation superintendent and educator I want to be. Everywhere I turn (in my office and with my schedule) I feel that I can't make any significant headway. Every good intention seems to be thwarted by my own disorganization, stacks of things to read, and desire to handle work projects and obligations with professional efficiency and mastery. In short, this sucks. I suck.
Don't get me wrong, things are great at home and with my health, but this current version of "me the professional" is not cutting it. It's not the jobs - I love what I do. I have great staff/co-workers who do great work. My students are great and are very responsive in class and in the work they turn in. My boss is supportive and happy with my performance . . . but I am not. I know I can do better and, just like I'm typing this with only two-fingers, I know I am not making the most of my time, resources, and basic organizational skills.
Wally Bock's Leading Yourself: A Baker's Dozen of Things to Master provides a simple list of actionable things I can do to help move myself into a more productive, efficient, and engaged mode professionally. I know this will take time and that new habits must be practiced (30 days for it to really take hold and 10,000 hours of committed practice to demonstrate mastery), but I don't want to look back a week from now, a month from now, or a year from now and say, "If only I had started back then . . ." It's going to take time to get organized and practice to stay organized, but like Walt Disney said, "The way to get
started is to quit talking and begin doing,” and “The secret of juggling many responsibilities is organization."
Let's get started . . . .